This beautiful girl is my purpose, my heart, and my reason I am who I am today..... I never understood when my mom would tell us that her love for her children was never ending and unconditional.... Until I had my own child. From the moment I knew I was pregnant, I just knew how special she would be to me. Little did I know that she made me stronger, my heart grow bigger and my love for her daddy grow even more. I didn't even think that was possible. She helped me realize just how strong I am and gave me the self confidence I never thought I would ever have. It took a while, even after she we born, to acknowledge what she was put on this earth to do for me. & it was to help me spread my wings and become the person I know was there deep down.... She will always be my purpose, my strength and will to continue to do the things I do and be the person I am today. God knew exactly what he was doing when he brought this angel into my life. I am forever grateful to him to bless me with her. I will always teach her how important it is to be who you are and to not hide yourself. To be strong and love yourself. I will be the role model God wants me to be to her. She is my angel.... My love... My heart. :) she will forever be my baby girl! <3
Thursday, August 15, 2013
I've never been one to want stronger abs or anything but I think it will help me get fit for running. So I decided to do this 30 day challenge and see if I end up with some results. I'm going to post before pics and update pics through out the challenge.
I know I have stretch marks in this picture... & I'm very proud of them. I call them my tiger stripes! :) they are nothing to be ashamed of because I gained them while carrying my child! They are special to me because in reality, some women wish they could get them from carrying a baby.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
I got back out there today and walked/jogged .38 miles before I started my Nike plus app on my phone (oops!) so I started it and finished at 1.21 miles not counting the .38 miles! I had to stop every lap due to sweat in my leg liner but I kept on truckin'!!! Go hard or go home right?! ;) I noticed I can jog longer and longer each time I go.... That makes me a happy girl! Means all this work and sweat is starting to show! Eeeekkkkk! Exciting! :) onward to tomorrow!!! :)
Friday, August 2, 2013
Nice work out today!! Whew!! Jogged right under a mile and walked the rest- a total of 1.5 miles. :) I'm gaining more strength in my legs, I can really tell! Closer and closer! I can feel the excitement now!!!! :)))
Keep on keepin on!!!! :)
This saying is one of my favorite sayings.... I always struggled with believing in myself. I really had in my mind that I would never be able to live the kind of life I wanted not because I didn't have people around me telling me I couldn't (they have ALWAYS told me I could do anything I put my mind to) but because I just didn't believe it myself. After my amputation- I thought it would get better but really, I starting hiding myself completely then. When I met my husband, he accepted me from the day he met me. Never once did he question our lives together because of my leg. He never understood why I always hid my leg and I couldn't really explain it to him... Or anyone. He met me as a different person than I am today. & he still loved me... For me! It took a very long time to see myself as he saw me. Well, as anyone saw me.
When Lyla came along, I still struggled with myself. But she gave me a form of strength and courage I never thought I had. It started slowly developing until one day (April 2013) I woke up and looked at her and said "What am I teaching her? To hide yourself and be ashamed? To be insecure and to hate herself? I can not be teaching my perfect gift from God to feel that way about herself!" & that's the day I changed! It was like a light bulb went off and it never went out! My whole life changed from that day forward. A whole new confidence developed not only for myself but for my daughter. I spread my wings and I'm soaring. :) Don't get me wrong, I was happy with my life and everyone in it before but I wasn't happy within myself. I didn't believe in myself, I was someone I didn't know.
I'm finally me.... I finally believe.... I finally see myself as everyone has always seen me. It took 8 years of hiding and 22 years before that of low self esteem and low self worth but I'm stronger and the person I am today because of all of that. My life right now is my dream. My husband and daughter are my rocks! I thank God everyday for what he has blessed me with. I can say and understand the saying "She believed she could so she did" because I have lived it. & my journey as this Lindsay has just begun! :)
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
I jogged/walked 1.5 miles this evening.... & I was dying. ;) My second day of working out after my 4 day break... Whew! & what is frustrating is I have to stop almost every lap and wipe my liner out that hold my leg on. If I don't, I will get sores so its important that I do... But I lose my momentum when I have to stop every time! Gah! Hopefully when I get my running leg, I will be able to get a liner that will be better for sweating! We can only hope! :) Everyday I get closer and closer to my goal!!