Saturday, August 17, 2013

The reason I spread my wings

This beautiful girl is my purpose, my heart, and my reason I am who I am today..... I never understood when my mom would tell us that her love for her children was never ending and unconditional.... Until I had my own child. From the moment I knew I was pregnant, I just knew how special she would be to me. Little did I know that she made me stronger, my heart grow bigger and my love for her daddy grow even more. I didn't even think that was possible. She helped me realize just how strong I am and gave me the self confidence I never thought I would ever have. It took a while, even after she we born, to acknowledge what she was put on this earth to do for me. & it was to help me spread my wings and become the person I know was there deep down.... She will always be my purpose, my strength and will to continue to do the things I do and be the person I am today. God knew exactly what he was doing when he brought this angel into my life. I am forever grateful to him to bless me with her. I will always teach her how important it is to be who you are and to not hide yourself. To be strong and love yourself. I will be the role model God wants me to be to her. She is my angel.... My love... My heart. :) she will forever be my baby girl! <3

Thursday, August 15, 2013

30 day Ab challenge-- Day 1.

I've never been one to want stronger abs or anything but I think it will help me get fit for running. So I decided to do this 30 day challenge and see if I end up with some results. I'm going to post before pics and update pics through out the challenge. 
I know I have stretch marks in this picture... & I'm very proud of them. I call them my tiger stripes! :) they are nothing to be ashamed of because I gained them while carrying my child! They are special to me because in reality, some women wish they could get them from carrying a baby. 

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Live to inspire... Inspire to live.

I had the honor of meeting two amazing ex-marines walking across America to raise awareness and funding for wounded warriors. They are called "The Wounded Warrior Project" or "The Wounded Walk".... The guys are walking 2700 miles, from California to Washington DC in roughly 3 months. They came through my hometown of Clarksville AR. When they rounded the corner into downtown, my eyes filled with tears of happiness, gratefulness, and thankfulness! These 2 men are doing such a selfless act for people they don't even know. It touched me so much and inspired me to inspire more! The passion they have for what they are doing is just amazing. To see them get emotional about things they have seen or people they have met is truly heartwarming. They have told me that I'm inspiring to them but really, they lit more of a fire under me to do even more to help people. I'm very blessed to be meeting more and more people that are doing Gods work and it makes me feel like I am doing exactly what he wants me to do in life. I thank God for opening these door for me and bringing amazing people in my life. These two guys are some of the nicest, selfless, thoughtful guys I've ever met. & I will always remember that day for the rest of my life. My prayers are with you guys as you continue walking and I hope we cross paths again one day! :) God Bless you! Thank you for inspiring me to do even more!!!!! ��

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

This heat is..... Frustrating!

I got back out there today and walked/jogged .38 miles before I started my Nike plus app on my phone (oops!) so I started it and finished at 1.21 miles not counting the .38 miles! I had to stop every lap due to sweat in my leg liner but I kept on truckin'!!! Go hard or go home right?! ;) I noticed I can jog longer and longer each time I go.... That makes me a happy girl! Means all this work and sweat is starting to show! Eeeekkkkk! Exciting! :) onward to tomorrow!!! :)

Friday, August 2, 2013

Lets sweat!! :)

Nice work out today!! Whew!! Jogged right under a mile and walked the rest- a total of 1.5 miles. :) I'm gaining more strength in my legs, I can really tell! Closer and closer! I can feel the excitement now!!!! :)))

Keep on keepin on!!!! :) 

This is determination right here!!! Look at all that sweat in my liner that holds my leg on!! Ewwww!! & very frustrating because of it filling full of sweat!!! 

Love yourself and everything will fall into place

This saying is one of my favorite sayings.... I always struggled with believing in myself. I really had in my mind that I would never be able to live the kind of life I wanted not because I didn't have people around me telling me I couldn't (they have ALWAYS told me I could do anything I put my mind to) but because I just didn't believe it myself. After my amputation- I thought it would get better but really, I starting hiding myself completely then. When I met my husband, he accepted me from the day he met me. Never once did he question our lives together because of my leg. He never understood why I always hid my leg and I couldn't really explain it to him... Or anyone. He met me as a different person than I am today. & he still loved me... For me! It took a very long time to see myself as he saw me. Well, as anyone saw me. 
When Lyla came along, I still struggled with myself. But she gave me a form of strength and courage I never thought I had. It started slowly developing until one day (April 2013) I woke up and looked at her and said "What am I teaching her? To hide yourself and be ashamed? To be insecure and to hate herself? I can not be teaching my perfect gift from God to feel that way about herself!" & that's the day I changed! It was like a light bulb went off and it never went out! My whole life changed from that day forward. A whole new confidence developed not only for myself but for my daughter. I spread my wings and I'm soaring. :) Don't get me wrong, I was happy with my life and everyone in it before but I wasn't happy within myself. I didn't believe in myself, I was someone I didn't know. 
I'm finally me.... I finally believe.... I finally see myself as everyone has always seen me. It took 8 years of hiding and 22 years before that of low self esteem and low self worth but I'm stronger and the person I am today because of all of that. My life right now is my dream. My husband and daughter are my rocks! I thank God everyday for what he has blessed me with. I can say and understand the saying "She believed she could so she did" because I have lived it. & my journey as this Lindsay has just begun! :)

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

No pain no gain

I jogged/walked 1.5 miles this evening.... & I was dying. ;) My second day of working out after my 4 day break... Whew! & what is frustrating is I have to stop almost every lap and wipe my liner out that hold my leg on. If I don't, I will get sores so its important that I do... But I lose my momentum when I have to stop every time! Gah! Hopefully when I get my running leg, I will be able to get a liner that will be better for sweating! We can only hope! :) Everyday I get closer and closer to my goal!!